When I was growing up, I wished I was straight. Actually, that's not entirely true. When I was a teenager, I convinced myself I was straight. The first time I had a crush on a girl, I was 11 years old. It was about this time when I started having crushes in general, before that … Continue reading Finding Peace With Your Internalised Biphobia
Falling in love. It's something that feels different for everyone. No matter who you are though, falling in love is an intense thing. However, combine falling in love with the intense emotions that having borderline personality brings, and you have yourself a recipe for something that can be amazing, but can also be painful. There … Continue reading Falling in Love When You Have BPD
It's been a long time since I blogged. I so wanted this to be something I did regularly. I love writing and I wanted to use blogging as an outlet for my own struggles, as well as my own entertainment and connecting with others, but after just a couple of months blogging, I went through … Continue reading A Little Update
Dear 9 year old me, I know everything seems overwhelming right now. I know that you're experiencing feelings that you don't understand. I know you're filled with sadness and anxiety that makes no sense to you right now. I know how bad you feel and I know how much you want those feelings to stop. … Continue reading A Letter To My Nine Year Old Self
I went for years without an 'official' diagnosis. My GP just labelled my struggles as depression and anxiety, but it wasn't an official diagnosis. When I saw a CBT therapist, he told me I had OCD and because he was an OCD specialist, I think he could diagnose me, but I have no idea if … Continue reading Is Psychiatric Diagnosis Helpful Or Harmful?
I did a blog post not so long ago that contained a list of songs that I thought could be relatable to those of us who have borderline personality disorder. However, when I was creating that playlist, there were several other songs I had in mind. I didn't want to make the last blog post … Continue reading My BPD Playlist: Part Two
I've always found the concept of calling an illness a 'personality disorder', weird. It seems to imply that the issue is our character. It also makes the idea of recovery hard. How do I have any chance of getting better if my illness is part of my personality? If it's apart of who I am? … Continue reading When Your Personality is Disordered